I feel as though I may be having a mini mid life crisis. I believe I have already had a major one many years ago, I don’t know if your allowed to have another major one, so it will just have to be a mini one. So what does someone do about it? I want to go on record and say that I have a great life, one that people on the outside think is pretty good. But on the inside I have many of the same issues that other people have; such as, what am I doing with my life? Where am I going? How do I get there? And unfortunately facing end of life questions not only for me but for those I love. So what do you do?
I tend to be an overly organized person, I have to be. Between one business, and establishing a second and my travels on top of those, organization is my best friend. Sadly having an organized day doesn’t mean having an organized life. I am very good at organizing and managing my day, but not always my life. I can plan and schedule my business and travel life 3-6 months in advance without a problem, but those are small amounts of time when you look at it from the perspective that my life will be much longer. Over the years people have asked me how do you manage your time so well? First, I believe it is a fallacy to believe you can manage time. Time Management is a misnomer. You can not manage time any more than the next guy, the clock will tick off 24 hours a day every day and there is nothing you can do about it. I believe that it isn’t about managing time, it’s about managing events throughout your day, which take up your time, this is how you accomplish your goals. 24 hours for me are the same 24 hours for you. But how we manage the events that suck away that time, makes the difference.
I am writing about his because at times, I loose sight of that fact. That sometimes I get frustrated and overwhelmed with all the things in my life and those things that I didn’t plan on getting in the way. Things that I have no control over, things that have taken on a life of their own, and things that I must recognize and let them run their course while managing the event as it happens, this is what gets me to my goal. Recently, I have not done such a good job of it.
When I am in this mind space, I find time to be with myself. And that usually happens when I am traveling. I find a space to go to, one that allows me to focus on life to see the beauty all around me which reminds me that although I may be struggling at this very moment, that my struggles are nothing more than a moment in time, a blink of an eye, a single rain drop in the puddle of life.
While on my latest trip to Berlin, I found myself in that space, a place I know well and a time when I recognize that I need to spend some time with myself. So I did.
Berlin has a beautiful park called Tiergarten. Think of it as a smaller (but not by much) Central Park. It’s filled with beautiful trails, streams, rivers and lakes. A place of solitude. Although the Tiergarten is absolutely gorgeous in the spring and summer; full of life and filled with people and all over the place, it takes on a whole new life in the dead of winter. It looks and feels lonely, it’s tree’s naked and it’s ground covered in cold, wet snow, much like I felt walking through it, cold and lonely. But this is exactly what I needed, in it’s own way it woke me up to life. My walk through made me realize that there are periods where one must be willing to allow the seasons of ones life to have their time. I think that means that my seasons will move quickly and slowly based on what I am suppose to learn from them.
I learned much from my walk through Tiergarten, I’d like to share some of the photo’s I have taken on my walk. I have said time and time again, travel is not always about packing a bag and going somewhere, at times travel is done in your mind. Travel like that takes you places that maybe you didn’t intend on traveling to and yet somehow it’s a fulfilling trip.